I have ten tattoos already and I'm getting another one! I'm getting a Koi fish on my right upper arm on Wednesday at noon i'm so excited!

I’m getting so tired of people saying how fat I am. Ok I know I’m fat and I’m trying my best to do something about it, but I’m so sick of everyone thinking they’re telling me something new. It gets old hearing “you’re fat” “fat ass” “white whale” over and over again. I didn’t chose to be this way and it’s so hard to change. I’m just so tired of people saying shit just to hurt others it’s not cool and never fun as far as I know. I don’t know why I’m posting this anywhere, but I am probably because I’m not the only one who goes through this day after day. I have no self esteem or self confidence because of people saying the slightest things. Ok ya theirs the saying, “stick and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.” Who ever actually says that is full of shit because words can hurt especially to someone that hears it over and over again then they begin to believe it. I really don’t think I’m beautiful in anyway just by how people treat me. A few people respect me and to tell me I’m beautiful, but it doesn’t make up for the looks I get when I go anywhere. I exercise and eat right, but I have a very slow metabolism and it’s not my fault. I don’t even want to be a picture perfect 118 pounds which some people still criticize and call someone of that weight fat. I’m just sick of it I just want to be happy, beautiful to myself, feel good about myself, be with someone who cares weather or not I’m any of those things and most of all to be true to myself. I want to lose weight so I feel good and healthy that’s it. I’m sick of people trying to hurt me with their words and hurting other people in the same situation. Some people can’t help their weight because medical issues or just how their built.

Ok i know i don't really keep up a good journal here but i do update my live journal all the time so ya here's the link for you to check out if you want to read my livejournal

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i update it more than anything and sometimes when i rant it can be funny i post more pictures up in my blogs and it's just more entertaining and fun

—YOUR BOY SIDE—-
[x] You love hoodies.
[ ] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It’s hilarious when people get hurt. (only if they're laughing... usually)
[ ] Shopping is torture
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[x] You own a car racing game.
[x] You played with Hot Wheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You owned a DS, PS2, N64,or Sega.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.(I hate them!)
[x] You have watched sports on TV
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[x] You go to your dad for advice. (I live with just my dad)
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You used to collect hockey cards.
[x] Baggy sweats are cool to wear.
[ ] It’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. (black)
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[ ] Sports are fun
[ ] You talk with food in your mouth.
[ ] You sleep with your socks on at night.
[x] You have fished at least once

—-YOUR GIRL SIDE—-
[ ] You love to shop.
[x] You wear eyeliner (sometimes)
[ ] You wear the color pink
[ ] You go to your mom to talk.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black. (I almost only wear black)
[x] You like going to the mall. (i have friends that work there)
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[x] You like wearing jewelry. (only my rings)
[ ] You cried watching The Notebook.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe(i only have 1 black and pink lace tutu)
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don’t like the movie Star Wars
[ ] You are/were in gymnastics
[x] It takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up (I don't wear make up but i take long showers because its the only place i get to relax)
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes. (combat boods, converse, black skater shoes, and flip flops )
[x] You care about what you look like.(i don't care what other people thank)
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[ ] You like wearing high heel shoes.(If their the right shoes sure)
[x] You used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] You like putting make-up on others.
[ ] You like being the star of everything.
[x] Pink is one of your favorite colors. (some shades)

Appearance •

[ ] I am shorter than 5′5″.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan/ burn easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different colour.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
[x] I have a tattoo. (Many look at my gallery)
[ ] I’ve had/have braces.
[x] I have more than two piercings.
[x] I have / had piercings in places besides my ears. (lips, bridge and had eyebrow)

• Embarrassment •

[ ] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[ ] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[x] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[ ] I’ve laughed ’til some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I’ve had my pants rip in public.

• Health •

[x] I’ve gotten stitches.(many things)
[ ] Broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[x] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I’ve had serious surgery. (Gaulblader out may '08)
[x] I’ve had chicken pox. (twice)


• Traveling •

[x] I’ve driven / riden over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[ ] I’ve been to Canada.
[ ] I’ve been to Cuba.
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I’ve been to Ottawa.
[ ] I’ve gone to Sudbury.
[ ] I’ve been to the Caribbean.
[ ] I’ve been to Europe.
[ ] I’ve been to Florida.


• Experiences •

[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city. (learning to drive)
[x] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas. (really who hassent)
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[x] I’ve gone skinny-dipping. (Several times with friends and my ex boy friend)
[ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.(I HATE MILK!!)
[ ] I’ve crashed a car. (nope i've been that lucky so far almost had people crash into me though)
[ ] I’ve been skiing.
[x] I’ve been in a musical. (Every kid has come on grade school)
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[ ] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[x] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. (Like the best movie ever)
[ ] I’ve eaten Sushi.
[ ] I’ve been snowboarding.

• Honesty / Crime •

[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out.
[ ] I’ve ran a red light. (No but have ran a stop sign)
[x] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[x] I’ve been in a fist fight. (Several times)
[ ] I’ve been arrested. (almost)

• Death and Suicide •
[x] I’m afraid of dying. (only beucause i have more to do)
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I’ve seen someone / something dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted / committed suicide.
[x] I’ve planned my own suicide before. (I wouldn't say planned but i have thought about it i think everyone does at one point who has a rough past)
[ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

• Materialism •
[ ] I own over 5 rap CD’s.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime / manga.
[ ] I own designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.(I hate purses...)
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collected comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on E-Bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie

• Random •

[x] I can sing well .
[x] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. (We slid down a hill on them to)
[ ] I open up to others easily
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don’t kill bugs
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I care about grammar.
[ ] I have “?”’s in my screen name.
[ ] I love spam.
[x] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day. (So my friend could have copies she had no money nor did her parents they were almost homeless)
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun. (And i'm good with it)
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. (art, PE, and health i dk my teachers didn't care much)
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I like white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I’m good at remembering faces.
[x] I’m good at remembering names.
[ ] I’m good at remembering dates.
[ ] honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (I want to be a tattoo artist and be happy with a husband or wife i dk i'm bi and kids)
[x] All my answers were totally honest

Stolen from ~WavemasterShia13

1. Smoked. [x]
2. Consumed alcohol. [x]
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. [x]
5. Kissed someone of the same sex. [x]
6. Had sex. [x]
7. Had someone in your room other than family. [x]
8. Watched porn. [x]
9. Bought porn. [x]
10. Done drugs. [x] only pot
TOTAL: 10

1. Taken painkillers. [x]
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine. [x]
3. Lied to your parents. [x]
4. Lied to a friend. [x]
5. Been to rehab. []
6. Done something illegal. [x]
7. Cut yourself. [x]
8. Hurt someone. [x]
9. Been to a club. []
10. Seen someone die.[]
TOTAL: 17

1. Missed curfew. [x when i had one]
2. Stayed out all night. [x]
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. [x]
4. Been to a therapist. [x]
5. Snuck out of the house. [x]
6. Dyed your hair. [x]
7. Received a ticket. []
8. Been in an accident. [x someone else was driving]
9. Wished someone to die. []
10. Been to a bar. [x if a brewery counts or my house on ocassion]
TOTAL: 25

1. Been to a wild party. [x]
2. Been to a Mardi Gras parade. []
3. Drank more than four beers in a night. [x takes more to get drunk]
4. Had a spring break in Florida. []
5. Sniffed anything. [x as stupid as it was i got $50 for sniffing Kool aid]
6. Wore black nail polish. [x]
7. Wore arm bands. [x]
8. Wore t-shirts with band names. [x]
9. Listened to rap. [x]
10. Owned a 50 Cent CD. []
TOTAL: 32

1. Dressed Gothic. [x]
2. Dressed prep.[x]
3. Dressed punk. [x]
4. Dressed grunge. [x]
5. Stole something. [x]
6. Been too drunk to remember anything. [x]
7. Blacked out. [x]
8. Fainted. [x]
9. Had a crush on a neighbor. [x]
TOTAL: 41

1. Snuck into someone else's room. [x]
2. Had a crush on your friend. [x]
3. Been to a concert. [x]
4. Dry-humped someone. [x]
5. Been called a slut. [x]
6. Called someone a slut. [x]
7. Installed speakers in your car.[]
8. Broken a mirror. [x]
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house. [x]
10. Brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush. [x boyfriend i made out with him theirs no difference]
TOTAL: 50

1. Consider/Considered Ludacris your favorite rapper. []
2. Seen an R-rated movie in theater. [x]
3. Cruised the mall. [x]
4. Skipped school. [x]
5. Had surgery. [x]
6. Had an injury. [x]
7. Gone to court. [x]
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. []
9. Caught something on fire. [x]
10. Lied about your age. [x]
TOTAL: 58

1. Owned/rented an apartment.[]
2. Broke the law in the police's presence. [x didn't get caught]
3. Made out with someone who had a gf/bf. [x my friends are nuts]
4. Got in trouble with the police. []
5. Talked to a stranger. [x]
6. Hugged a stranger. [x]
7. Kissed a stranger. []
8. Rode in the car with a stranger. [x]
9. Been harassed. [x]
10. Been verbally harassed. [x]
TOTAL: 65

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online. [x]
2. Stayed online for 5 hours straight. [x]
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. [x]
4. Watched TV for 5 hours straight. [x]
5. Been to a fair. [x]
6. Been called a bad influence. [x]
7. Drink and drive. [not stupid enough to]
8. Prank-called someone. [x]
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. [x and some]
10. Cheated on a test. [x]
TOTAL: 74 ya i've done alot

TOTAL:
-If You Have Less Then 10.. write [I'm a Goody Goody.]
-If You Have More Than 10.. write [I'm still a goody goody.]
-If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average.]
-If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid.]
-If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence.]
-If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person.]
Feel free to steal ,since you're such bad kids XD